Oh, how I wish this were a Happy post about a cute little boy who just turned Two. I am not even sure where to go what to write or how to even feel. Two. the number of weeks it has been since my world has been shaken up and twisted so much it hurts to breath. My brother was such a huge part of our lives and our family that losing him feels like we lost it all. I am no stranger to grief and this year has proven to be one of the most difficult in all of my years and I have had some pretty rough ones. Praying is hard because, all I want to do is yell at GOD and ask him why? WHY? why would you do this to us? so soon after losing my Uncle? There will never be an answer at least not a clear one.
Allan was my only brother and he was the best brother not only to me but, to my three sisters. He was an only son but, the best son you could ever ask for. He was my sister in-laws Best friend and the love of her life. He was the Greatest Father to my three nieces and nephew and an Amazing Uncle the kind you would call your favorite :)These past two weeks I have learned so much more about the man he had become. God has shed some beautiful light on us all by surrounding our family with many people who were touched by my Brothers kindness...this is where I will take comfort, in knowing that he made everyday count and made many people laugh and feel good about themselves. This Son, Brother, Husband, Father, Uncle and Friend to many.
This was from Beau's Birthday last year. I love my brother's smile:) Beau turned two and as far as he knows nothing is different. Trying to be happy and celebrate life when you just lost someone is hard but, the innocence of a child is healing. I know my brother is with us and around us all lifting us up and giving us strength to do good things. Please pray for our family, please hug your loved ones tight and tell them you love them often. I remember everything about the last time I saw my brother. It was so very special... I will feel that hug for the rest of my life.
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